I hate to say such words like, it's been a long time as I used to say in all my precious entries. But, I have to inevitably say it again.

 

Oh, it's been a long time, really really a long time.

 

I have switched to Chinese mode since perhaps last july, for that I realized I did not possess adequate english knowledge to express my feelings accurately. I opened other blogs and Qzones for the sake of recording my thoungts through my beloved Chinese, I have to declare that it was pretty aidant. The only negative effect was I gradually lost some of my english skills, so to speak, english is not my mother tongue, without constant practicing, I could not achieve the high standard.

 

But, good thing was that I didn't stop reading the books or the news, most of all I didn't stop thinking, I didn't rest my mighty brain.

 

I was seeking other ways, I was still learning, from other aspect.

 

Until recently, I happend to find this book - "Atonement", I am obsesed by the literary dipiction inside, they are attractive, verbose, accurate, and bewitched, the first time I perceive the magic of english language, thoroughly, which I sensed from Chinese long time ago. It's sparking undernearth the yellowish paper, hiding inside the words, but haunting in your brain, tricky, elvish, however long lasting. It brings pleasure, inspiration, it softens you soul, keeps you from daylight, and whispers to you, the ancient mantra, the genesis of human sensation.

 

That is the far cry, wakes me from urban depression, give me power, that's love, that's beauty.

 

I start to believe that each and every language is ultimately the same, they may have different expression, different syntax, grammar, prounciation, but they are the same, they echo from the inner body to connect us together, grant us intelligence, give us means to believe, to sense the world.

 

There is no shorcut to learn a language, all you should do is to cherish them, give your heart to them, the meaning is not the language itsef, the meaning is how you shape your mind, let go you soul, to feel.

 

It's certainly a long way to go.

 

书读百遍，其义自现！