I had been humbly seeking a way to achieve my so called greatness.

 

I was not a strong man obviously that I could so easily abandon what I had aimed. And, thus I was always holding my envy upon others and every time, this envy grew bigger when I failed to outperform my competitors as what I wished.

 

Yet, this time, after a long way, a painful and harrowing journey; I finally realized what I was longing for.

 

I was not such a person who should always be envious, I am a person who wish to win a little bit claps after I devoted myself greatly for any tiny purposes.

 

And so, I started to know that I was focusing wrongly before. The goal was not the little bit claps that I hoped, the goal was how much I devoted!

 

And so, I shall put my heart fully on what I am doing, and I shall be holding each precious moments tightly when I am doing that something.

 

I forgot who told me about how happily she was when she found that she was progressing each time when she was fighting her increasing sloth; and I must tell her that I now understand the happiness she once possessed.

 

The day, I won that basketball match marked my own happiness at the time; I believe that the day I enter the university will also mark the happiness again with all my meaningful struggles that I am now overcoming!

 

Yes, purhaps the greatest wish that I have now is going to University, which I lost this year.

 

Even though, it's slightly childish and not my style.

 

I am still dreaming of standing on a stage which belongs to me, address a important speech like Martin Luther King, like when I had been as a child

 

Again, I am just a child and I wish to be it forever; until, until, the day, someone could wake me up.

 

The day, I can say I love you gently